Developments or Not

We’re beginning the transition into Texas summer and the lovely swelter of many months. We still have some relatively mild weather for the next few weeks, so I’ve been checking off my yard reboot task list. As of yesterday, I’ve completed manual aeration of both front and back yards, and I fertilized and seeded the front on Tuesday. Today I’ll finish that off for the back yard. The ratios and spreader settings are a bit sketchy, but I was trying to follow the recommendations from the soil sample testing I had done. As I may have mentioned, our yard was deficient in most nutrients, with only calcium and sulfur being overly abundant. I’m curious if that’s an issue of toxicity, or it just lays inert, so to speak, if the plant life isn’t using it. This is based on the assumption that my core sample mixture was representative.

Core aeration is not something I wish to perform manually for the entire yard again. It’s a tedious and cumulatively arduous task that would go exponentially faster with a machine. I ran into enough roadblocks trying to rent one or get the service performed that I got fed up and just decided to pay $36 and do it myself. I don’t regret the decision and the tool will come in handy in the future, because I’m sure there are nooks and crevices that the machine can’t reach. That said, my plan for the future is to hire a guy (as you do) to have this service performed in the fall and spring. This is assuming I can see some tangible improvements. Hopefully, the assortment of interventions (dethatching, scarifying, raking, aeration, raking, seeding, fertilizing, mowing, watering) will pay off with a thick, and dark green lawn. I have some iron supplement to provide more color if needed, but I’m holding off on that until the new seed is established.

The soil test lab recommended potash and phosphorus as well as “my choice of micronutrients” to get the soil into shape. I’m not sure I got the ratios right, but hopefully there’s enough of the potassium and phosphorus in particular to make up the deficit. I followed those two select ratios with your more standard fertilizer comprised of nitrogen and the typical cross section of micronutrients. Hopefully this won’t burn out the lawn. It’s a lot of supplements at once, hopefully in the future I’ll only need one standard fertilizer to complement the overseeding.

Despite waxing agricultural, I don’t want to dedicate any more time to this than is absolutely necessary. Our yard/soil had been neglected or at least hadn’t had focused supplementation since we moved in, so it was due for more TLC than would normally be necessary. We’ll see how things go. I’ll be watering twice daily for the next few weeks (not counting rainy days) so hopefully the new bermuda seed will germinate and take root. We have a few large bare patches in the back yard that are competing with trees and a reduced amount of sunlight exposure. I’ll see how overseeding goes there. We may eventually decide those areas should just be patios. One project at a time.

I got a second set of overhead storage shelves for the garage, but I’m going to delay installation until next week. We also got a paint sprayer so we can hit the garage door and fence, but that’s also going to wait until at least next week. I’m only going to engage in time-swallowing projects one day at a time. Today I’ll complete the back yard fertilization and overseeding since there’s a limited amount of effective time after aeration that it will make a difference. I think the aeration should have some long term benefits beyond just the seeding/fertilization, mainly in drainage and water/nutrient distribution, but the time for overseeding/fertilization is within 48 hours of aeration.

Continuing on this post a day later - I discovered my core aeration efforts in the front yard are giving me some extra work and additional practice at sprinkler system repair. To my chagrin, I learned the drip tubing on the streetside strip is only buried about 3-4 inches deep, so the core aerator punctured the lines in several locations. I’m going to need to buy a roll of tubing and some connectors and perform several repairs. As I’ve stated before in many different contexts, failure can be a great teacher.

I had performed a few google searches about sprinkler pipe depth but I guess I was using the wrong nomenclature and I should have searched drip tubing. When I searched for underground sprinkler rubber tubing repair I eventually discovered it’s called drip tubing in the industry and now I know it’s buried at a shallower depth. Not a devastating error, just some more sweat equity and a serving or two of humble pie.

Although not my intention, each project seems to beget more projects. My hope is to get most of this lawn and short term DIY stuff knocked out so I can get back to my core (no pun intended) disciplines. I definitely plan on availing myself of the core aeration service in the fall.

I took the Pathfinder in for an estimate of repairs to fix the gas neck issue that’s plagued us for years. I had found a service bulletin which I assumed meant it was a recall type issue, but I’ve learned that even though a service bulletin might get published, it doesn’t equate to a recall. So, I paid $120 to have Don Davis Nissan tell me it will be an additional $405 just to get a look at what’s wrong in particular.

No idea of what additional costs I might have to pay to actually get it fixed. It’s a pain in the ass to fill it up, but not a $500 to possibly $1000 (or more depending on how gougy they feel on that particular day) of a pain in the ass. I’ll just suck it up with my slow fill ups every couple of weeks. I only use it two days a week and eventually I want to get an electric car, but I’m putting that off until well after we pay off the house if possible.

On the workfront, things have settle into a tolerably predictable flow with VES. I’m slowly learning the techniques to avoid QA addendums. It goes against my long established habits when working directly for the VA, but ultimately it’s a losing battle against their policies, so I’ve adjusted to their preferences. I’ve learned that you really only want to address exactly what’s on a claim unless it’s a gen med “all conditions found…” type of exam. They invariably will ask to remove any conditions not mentioned on the claim, whether they are valid or not.

The DBQs are so much more convoluted on the VES side, and just ripe with opportunities for errors of omission. That’s one of many things I preferred about the VA’s version. Auto-negative functions like greying out irrelevant follow-up question were pretty standard, but the QA on the actual forms themselves is significantly lacking at VES. I guess they prefer to pay people to do it rather than build it into the forms.

Also of note, I had gotten a text from a former co-worker stating that “they” were looking to bring me back on as fee-basis at FWOPC. Apparently the low productivity rate of the federales has caught up with them again. Amazing, considering how far their numbers have dropped since most exam requests have been diverted to outside contractors. From what this co-worker said, even the contractors can’t keep up. I’ve seen a few announcements on the VES website that corroborate this, they did request for providers to provide additional booking days if available since there was a backlog.

All that said, I haven’t heard a peep so far. The co-worker had said they only wanted to ask me to come back, which indicates it’s not an enormous backlog, but in my estimation it’s probably those big cases that all the federales avoid. One big issue is my credentials being expired. In typical VA timeframes, that means it would likely be another 2 months to get me back on board. I’m wondering if they’ll go with a second or third choice from any of the providers who still have active credentials. It wouldn’t surprise me if they’re going for a quick fix and not thinking long term. Letting my credentials expire proves how nearsighted they can be.

If they aren’t willing to make the effort to get my credentials renewed, I’m not confident it would be worth the trouble. I definitely prefer fee-basis as I’m sure I’ve said ad nauseam in the past. The pay is better, the schedule is preferable, and the frustration index is significantly lower. We’ll see. At least I’ve settled into a livable lifestyle with VES and we can maintain this indefinitely if needed.

The Scab has been Ripped

I left early this morning in what may have been the last visit to my workplace for the last nine years. I needed to clean out the office of all my personal items and there were quite a few documents for the shred pile. Nothing sinister or incriminating, don’t get your hopes up. It was mostly exam notes and patient labs and the like that can’t just be thrown out in the trash. I tended to hold onto notes until the drawer could no longer manage, mainly in case there were ever follow up questions about exams.

Someone had already been occupying the office, not that I took that personally. I haven’t been in there since late March, so it’s good they’re getting some use out of it. I was also happy to find that all my personal items were still there and unmolested by all appearances. In a moment of pure snarky vengeance (isn’t snarky vengeance the guitarist in Avenged Sevenfold?), I almost took everything including my power strips, but that would have left the current occupant without a functioning second monitor. I should have done it, but I felt like it was a small gesture of professionalism that no one would notice or care about.

I didn’t really feel anything, other than relief that I was able to knock it out in two air huffing trips back and forth to the car. I’m not sure if it was the mask or my lack of more strenuous cardio with the knee issues, but it’s not a feeling I’m very familiar with. I really need to get back to running, but the right knee hasn’t been open to negotiation in several months. I’m sure it was partly the mask, but I’m not convinced my fat ass isn’t partially to blame as well. Aeyong jokingly asked if I cried, and I replied “no, not even close.” I guess the pervading feeling I have at the most recent development was one of mild betrayal.

That’s saying a lot, but I did live under the illusion that people actually cared and paid attention to our efforts. Maybe I’m wrong, but it certainly doesn’t feel that way now. I think the thing that ultimately did us in is the apathy of the career federal employee. Those who are content to make entire careers out of collecting full pay and benefits while doing the bare minimum exist at all levels. Just like there are providers that would do less in a month than I would do in a six hour shift (that’s not exaggeration, it actually happened several times over), there are supervisors with similar productivity ethos. Like I mentioned earlier, it’s probably easier on them to have fewer employees and I’m fairly certain they didn’t lobby for or champion our cause. Probably the opposite.

I tend to never say never, and it won’t surprise me if we’re eventually asked back, but much will depend on how things go with VES. Right now I’m still waiting to hear from their credentialing after sending my collaborative memo on Monday. If it’s like it was in 2016 then it’s not ideal, but I could still do fine with just a few shifts a month. If it’s like Gallegos indicated, they are paying differently now. She didn’t provide details and I’m not sure that her status with VES isn’t different since she’s been a regular with them all along. The best case scenario would be them paying for every DBQ performed, and if that was the case it’s highly unlikely I would ever see a justification to returning to VHA. Only time will tell.

Three days later and still no answer on the election, but a bombshell at work...

The election still hasn’t been decided, with several states still counting ballots and the necessary 270 electoral votes not yet attained by either candidate. That said, former Vice President Joe Biden is sitting in a better position with 253 called electoral votes to 214 for President Trump, and by appearances, he’s doing well enough in a few of the remaining states to push him over the top. To no one’s surprise, the incumbent has been crying foul since election night and has been trying to claim victory multiple times. I won’t describe it any further, it’s being heavily covered by the media and will be well documented in the historical records I’m sure.

Just to add a bit of spice to our lives, I was following up on my credentials packet renewal at work when the clinic chief responded to an email saying that my credentials didn’t need renewal because fee-basis providers weren’t going to be used by C&P going forward. That was it. Abrupt, and with little explanation or attempt to soften the blow. The other people I’ve talked to share my opinion that this isn’t permanent, but it’s hard to predict at this point how long it will last. It was out of character for this person, although I’ve had little interaction with him so I don’t have a great deal of basis to judge how he handled it. I do consider it a failure of leadership to not have informed all the affected fee basis providers as a group.

I’ll probably pursue work with one of the contractors in the interim depending on how this plays out. I was already assuming it would be months or longer before there was any resumption of normal work, so this isn’t beyond the realm of what thought possible. That said, the manner in which the message was delivered strikes a hit against my long term loyalty to the C&P clinic and its leadership. It doesn’t seem that all the years of hard work and the thousands of exams really amounted to much, at least in the eyes of the current leadership.

Laid off

I got the news via email (at 3 AM, which is nice) that Fee-Basis are being laid off by Ambulatory Care/C&P for the next 2-3 months or until C&P resumes normal operations. They are suspending any in-person exam requests and our outgoing program analyst (Curray) said he wasn’t sure they would have enough work for the FTEs (full-time equivalent) as well. While I can’t disagree with the logic, it came a bit faster and harsher than expected.

We’d already been game-planning the possibility, so it doesn’t come as a complete shock, but again, it was a bit sudden. Right now I’m trying to decide how I’m going to approach this. I sent out a feeler to Holly Gallegos (fellow Fee Basis and VES examiner) to see if she had an updated point of contact with VES. I have a feeling they are going to be scaling back if not suspending operations as well because I assume conducting exams would open them up to some liability issues. I’m curious if VBA is triggering the change to what they call ACE (acceptable clinical evidence), meaning exams and opinions that can be conducted remotely. That may be the case. This means that there’s probably going to be a huge backlog again in the future when the VA resumes normal operations.

I’m not sure, but it’s possible we can survive on my pension income alone, so we’ll just ride the storm out for as long as needed. We’ll have a better idea in the next couple of months about what’s happening with our cash flow. I’m debating about resuming a full-time schedule with Berklee, but I honestly would rather change my major to dual Guitar/Music Production before taking any more classes. I’ve got to decide on an audition and just submit it. Ironically, I’ve been laying off the guitar for several days with the COVID doldrums, so this may be the spark I need to get my playing back into shape. I hope my elbows are on board for this as well.

This was always the big risk/worst-case scenario when I decided to switch to Fee-Basis three years ago. I can’t really complain because I’ve been able to earn an additional three year’s salary above what I would have earned as an FTE, not to mention I’ve been working three days a week at most. It’s a strange feeling to think I’m not going to be scheduled to work anywhere for the indefinite future. COVID-19 is proving to be this generation’s single greatest cultural, economic, historical, etc. event. The world is already significantly different and I don’t see things ever going back to where they were before.

I’m glad we had paid so much down on the house, although the argument could be made that a bigger emergency fund would have served us better in the short term. We crossed under $100K a few payments ago, so switching to the minimum payment will stretch out our payoff date to six years, down from our plan of one year. We have a decent checking balance at present, so I’ll just watch what happens to our balance over the next few months. Given our normal monthly necessary (emphasis on necessary) expenditures, we may break even or even accrue income.

I’ve started canceling all the non-essential subscriptions, mainly to some music programs like Steven Slate and East-West Composer Cloud. I may leave others as-is for now, just to see what happens with our bank balances. We shouldn’t need to cut off any vital services like phone, internet, television. We should have enough money to cover those as well as groceries. We do have to think about those big financial outlays like the various insurance bills - medical, home/auto. We should be able to cover those, but they are big single time expenditures different than monthly maintenance.

I think there may be some silver linings to these clouds, although difficult to see at present.

Work related updates

Another infrequent update. I've been staying busy at work and school. I can't recall if I ever mentioned it before, but in the wake of a lot of upheaval in the VA system, not to mention crossing over the five year mark last August, I decided to request a change from a full time permanent position to fee basis (contract). This would see me forfeiting any additional deposits to my 401K as well as earning any more rate increase on my federal pension. I'm also technically forfeiting the other federal benefits (healthcare, dental, vision, paid leave) but those losses are negligible. I'm already eligible (and using) my retiree benefits for these and the loss of paid leave becomes irrelevant under the fee basis paradigm.  

What I gain from fee basis is getting paid for the amount of work I do, dictating what schedule I want to work (meaning I can work 5 days, 3 days, take a month off, etc.), and the ability to leave work as soon as I'm finished on any given day. The rate at which they pay (and considering how fast I work), means that if I maintain my current production levels I can realistically take home more money while working fewer days. Although I'll be forfeiting additional increase in my federal pension, it was never going to be a significant portion of my retirement and I will still be able to draw some money when I reach 62.  The 401k (TSP) may be eligible for transfer to another similar IRA type account. I will look into this in the future. Regardless, the cons are minor and the pros are great for this change. 

The decision to change was made in the wake of perceived sweeping changes in the VA (including an increased use of contractors) and the concerns about a new administration coming into power. I made the request in December and received fast and positive feedback from my direct supervisor. In this process, he has actually been the only real support and has moved things along at every step. It's still pending because of sitting in the Dallas VA mailroom for a month (literally) and then sitting on someone's desk in HR until my supervisor personally visited and got them to do their jobs. The complete lack of inertia among many employees in the VA is what gives us a bad name. There are people content to draw a paycheck and all the benefits and perform as little actual work as they can get away with. They act like they're doing you a personal favor just to listen to your request. 

All that being said, hopefully things are in the home stretch now and I can adopt a condensed schedule. My plan is to work Tue-Thu, but I'm requesting that they give me a dense schedule every day in the hopes I can maintain similar numbers. I'm hopeful I can nearly double my current take home pay, but that will be predicated by how much they offer in compensation and how high demand remains.