Wednesday Workday

It’s a rigorous schedule, but someone’s got to do it. Actually, my preference would be to work 2-3 days this week, but I’m still stuck with decreased demand and fewer big cases have been available as of late. I hope that changes, at least until we can pay the house off.

I’ve experimented with my daily routine in the last few days by putting Korean language study and drawing first and then practicing the various musical disciplines afterward. This has been successful so far in that it’s easier for me to maintain my motivation even if my mental focus is flagging a bit in the afternoon. I’ll keep with this for a while and see how it works out.

Another imminent change is the impending abstinence from alcohol once the on-hand supply runs out. This should coincide with Opeth on Saturday, so the timing is fairly fortuitous. This won’t be an absolute teetotal lifestyle as I’ll still have a few beers at concerts, but I’m going to at least give it a break during March and I’m going to try to resume more strict calorie and portion counting so I can lose some weight. On that note I went ahead and bought this Nintendo Switch and Ring Fit accessory, thinking I’ll give their fitness game a try. I’m hoping that some of these exercises will fire up some dormant upper body and core muscles that generally get ignored with my typical cardio only exercise habits. We’ll see.

Although I didn’t make a journal entry yesterday, I did watch the next JCO lecture on form, including one of her short stories. She has some interesting insights on how to add interest by approaching the traditional continuous chronological narrative in a different manner. Everything from making a story one continuous paragraph with no breaks, writing the story out of sequence, writing the story as a series of questions and answers, or only as answers. She even talked about visually altering the medium, e.g. typing out the text in the shape of objects like a tree. I’m not sure I would do this for a normal prose story, but it might be a cool approach for a lyric sheet to a song.

Her short story “Heat” was an interesting approach to narrative in that it seemed to be told by a friend of two young girls who were murdered when they were in seventh grade. Some of the paragraphs seem to be through the eyes of the friend (assume it’s a she) when the girls were still alive, and some of it’s from points in the future, even many decades later. It jumps back and forth between when they were alive, to their funeral, to the distant future, and back. It gives some stark contrast to some mundane observations interspersed with some really dark revelations. It’s very effective.

Yesterday was an overall successful day. As mentioned I studied Korean, drawing, and practiced drums, keys, and bass. As always, progress is slow and incremental but that’s the nature of the multidisciplinary beast. It’s interesting that JCO’s lecture on form coincides with my reading “Dracula” because that’s exactly how Bram Stoker approached his narrative. The story plays out in a series of narratives told through journal entries and correspondence, so you have a limited third-person view and must do a lot of the work to understand what’s transpiring. Most of us probably already know how the story plays out, so it’s not quite as nebulous, but I imagine this must have been a new and provocative take on narrative when it debuted.

The cyclical...

…nature of my health habits is pretty consistent. I start getting bloated and overweight feeling (and weighing, although I usually avoid confirmation via the scale at this point) and this eventually leads me to swear off beer and snacks for a few months. It’s been a long while since I recommitted to that, and I’m consciously avoiding the scale, knowing I’ve let my weight creep up. It’s on me, but I have allowed the recent passing of Neil Peart and Lyle Mays to justify additional beer drinking in a nightly ritual of remembrance. However, this has segued into just a nightly routine of beer drinking along with television or reading.

So, it’s about time to get serious about calorie counting again. This is the method that has worked in the past, I have to be disciplined about it. If it were just extra weight without other adverse side effects, I’d probably ignore it, but it starts to affect my sleep and increased the various musculoskeletal maladies as well. Anywho, I’ve got enough beer on hand at present to get through next week, and with Opeth on Saturday, that will close things out for February and I’ll make March an abstinence month. I’ll see how I’m feeling and if it seems my weight's dropping, I’ll eventually step on the scale again. I’d like to at least get below 200 again, even though my ideal weight is probably 170-180 (based on being somewhat wiry underneath the layers of suet), I know just getting below that threshold results in feeling and sleeping better.

Now, on to the more fun stuff. Yesterday was a fairly solid day, with the requisite drums, keys, bass, exercise, dog walk, Korean study, and nearly thirty minutes of drawing. My writing yesterday was the journal, and I watched the next JCO lecture on addressing taboos. I’ve decided to try and plug along in her lecture series and choose the writing exercises a la carte because it seems like if you take on all her suggested writing and reading, the series will take a couple of years to finish, at least at the rate I read and write. The taboo lecture was very powerful. I gather a lot of her writing focuses on these sorts of topics. I haven’t read any of her stories to my memory, but I plan to rectify that gap. She highlights the history of women writers and how in the past, they were discouraged from writing in general, but if they did write, it was supposed to be about domestic subjects in line with the accepted roles of women in a patriarchal society.

It’s interesting to hear how subjects like domestic abuse and rape were just not talked about as if ignoring them would make them go away. In many ways, we live in a more enlightened age where these former taboos can be addressed in the open, but I know there are still many societies around the world that haven’t moved on from those darker days. My wife’s home country of Korea is still largely patriarchal, and it’s still fairly pervasive as far as I know; daughters are expected to get married and have children. I don’t regularly interact with young Koreans, so I have a feeling this may be seeing a generational shift, along with many other significant cultural shifts that have happened in the age of the internet.

Particulars aside, I think JCO hits on an important point that’s shared by Neil Gaiman in that a writer tells stories to reveal a deeper truth. Often the most upsetting events in our life shape so much of who we become, although we often suppress those memories and will rarely talk about them, even with our closest loved ones. For me, writing and my other creative endeavors are a way of learning just who I am and what I care about. The expression of this truth can manifest in various mediums, but specifics aside, the act of creating is a way of transferring a part of oneself into another form and revealing a bit of who I am and what is important to me.

Another integral part of her lecture on taboo was the technique of elliptical writing. She used Oscar Wilde’s “The Picture of Dorian Gray” as an example of when taboo couldn’t be addressed directly, and so it was expressed in a vague enough manner that avoided the literal homoerotic and left it to the subtext. I’m not sure if I picked up on it when I read it as a teenager, although it wouldn’t have necessarily fazed me if I did. I plan on a re-read in the future. I think the elliptical approach is something I’ve already used, at least in songwriting and often in my natural language and these blogs. I think it’s not only a useful technique for one who may have been forced by their particular situation, but I think it can also be an effective means of leaving things open to interpretation and not being overly literal. It’s sort of analogous to Neil Gaiman’s “truth in the lies” approach, in that you’re expressing a thought, feeling, or theme but leaving it open to the reader to find their truth.

I should also mention I finished reading “The Song of the Black Sword” by Michael Moorcock. I’ve come to realize that Moorcock has a history of repackaging many of his stories, and so what I thought were some stories I hadn’t previously read were included in the original paperbacks I read all those years ago. Within many of those paperbacks were sections that were more like short stories but part of the overall narrative. The paperback book that was third in the original series I read “The Weird of the White Wolf” was comprised of three stories, “The Dreaming City,” “While the Gods Laugh,” and “The Singing Citadel.” I suppose these could stand on their own, but they make more sense as part of a narrative. The only significant difference between SOTBS and how I read the series originally is the later publication of “Fortress of the Pearl,” which now comes after “Elric of Melniboné” and before “The Sailor on the Seas of Fate.” It’s been such a long time since I read these originally that it’s like reading them anew.

I’m still plugging along on the “Inside the Victorian Home,” which has proven to be a great resource alike “The Time Traveler’s Guide to Medieval England.” It’s amazing how different our cultures were just a few hundred years ago. I need to pick my next novel to read, and I think I should shift back to a classic so I can eventually start to whittle down this behemoth of a TBR list. I think I’ll go easy on myself and at least pick something a bit shorter this time, and I’m eyeing “Slaughterhouse-Five” or maybe “The Maltese Falcon.”

Writer's Journal

I’ve been taking a variety of writing courses, including “Writing Great Fiction” by James Hynes, as well as Neil Gaiman’s Masterclass on the Art of Storytelling. I’ve collected no small amount of books and other online programs that I plan to work my way through gradually, and I also recently added Joyce Carol Oates’ Masterclass on the Art of the Short Story. I had been working on the broad strokes of a planned epic fantasy novel/trilogy and trying to incorporate the various writing exercises in these classes in starting to build the characters and scenes from this novel.

I’ve realized that it’s the practical act of writing that’s most important, and I need to find ways to spend most of my time engaging in this process, whether in service of this novel or any other purpose. The appeal of JCO’s class was projects that I could finish in shorter course that would allow me to have more experience at seeing a story through from beginning to end. All this preamble to say I’m adding this section to my page as a sort of “writer’s journal” at the suggestion of JCO’s course.

Her advice is to carry a journal (pencil/pen, paper, notebook, etc.) with you at all times and jot down any impressions, feelings, observations, et al., that occur to you during the day. I may eventually put that into practice, but since I spend most of my days in my home (yay, fee basis lifestyle), I’m going to try and make this a regular part of how I begin my mornings. I’ve been doing a version of this in my blog for nearly fourteen years now. Still, I wasn’t posting every day (sometimes going months without a post), and I was usually posting what I would consider “newsworthy” issues (in my particular milieu).

My intent is to make this a habit of just writing what’s on my mind, and I’ll probably have a sort of after-action review of the previous day, including any significant discoveries, accomplishments, failures, difficulties. You know, stuff.